Lately, on Wednesdays, I have been blogging about a recipe I cook from one of my cookbooks.
I just couldn't cook anything for this week's Cookbook Challenge.
I have been in one of those moods lately.
You see, I am coming up on the one-year anniversary of my brother's passing and it seems that these last two months, as the date approaches, have been harder than others.
Of all the years in my life, no year has flown by as fast as this year has.
I have not slept through the night since his passing. I am so in need of sleep that last night, I finally broke down and took two Tylenol PMs and they didn't help.
I keep dreaming of coffins and funerals.
And, I am angry. I wake up angry and I don't like this.
My brother took his life and there are so many unanswered questions; questions that will never be answered.
I am angry with many people regarding my brother's passing. I remember every cruel thing people said and they are outweighing all of the good things said.
As a Single Nester, I feel alone.
It has to stop.
Life is for the living and I must enjoy this one.image