Can I stand to lose weight? Abso-freakin-lutely! I need to lose more but, this isn't the way to lose it.
It is as if my stomach has shrunk. I have a lump in my throat and a knot in my stomach that makes it hard to eat.
Last Monday, I didn't get to eat anything until 2:30pm. I made myself a ham and cheese sandwich. Nothing fancy. I could only eat 1/2 of it before realizing I could not get down any more. I had to wrap the other half in plastic wrap and eat if for dinner. When the heck has that ever happened for this food lover? Never.
The following day, I had a cup of tea and an English muffin. It was like sandpaper in my mouth and I threw the rest away.
I have to be kind to myself and realize that if I can only eat one meal a day, so be it. There are no rules here. I can only do my best. Whatever my best is on that particular day.
"Bread deals with living things, with giving life,
with growth, with the seed, the grain that nurtures.
It is not coincidence that we say bread is the staff of life."
- Lionel Poilane